I have lost count of the number of times that I've pressed the reset button on my life. It used to something that I'd beat myself up about, but I've realized that if I want to continue living that I'd have to start over as many times as necessary.
Life isn't always the way we would like for it to be. I think almost anyone who has ever lived would agree with that statement. I started this blog with great expectations but things happened. I haven't even been to the dance studio in months because of those things. Between being a caregiver for my sick mother, being a mother myself, trying and failing to pay all my bills on time, and having my own brief stint in the hospital, this past year has not been worth bragging about. However, I'm still here. I hope that despite whatever struggles you have had, you will continue pressing forward, too.
Many grand ideas have crossed my mind over the years, but executing has always been an issue. I thought it was just the artist in me who is always looking for ways to express herself and has a hard time keeping commitments because of the limitless possibilities in the world. As it turns out, that is partially the reason, but this year I was also diagnosed with depression and anxiety, more on that in future posts. I wrote a little blurb about it on my poetry blog. Based on my research about depression and a screening test there's also a strong possibility that I have a mild case of ADHD.
"Stressful" couldn't describe this year. However, hitting rock bottom and losing pretty much everything, pride included, can be just what the doctor ordered. Every day you live is a new opportunity to start your life over. That's why I don't worry too much about New Year's resolutions or waiting to start on Mondays or the first of the month.
I'm going to keep trying at life. I hope you will, too.
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